Is Change On the Way?

I know it seems like I've dropped off the face of the earth, and sometimes I've tried to - not answering emails, not answering the phone...just going through the motions.


I try to get myself going again. I got the Fitbit. I logged my food. I did OK, then I blew it again. Work is kicking my ass, although I'm very pleased with my review for last year's work.


I'm going to try to make some changes. Some will be big, some will not. My cousin has moved in with me, temporarily. She's in transition. Tonight is the first night. I know it will be good for her, but I also think it'll be great for me. She has to leave for work before I do, so I've asked her to wake me up with the hopes that I'll get a walk in before work. She has a great figure, and although she says she works at it, it's never been the struggle for her that it has for me. However, I think having a support system living with me will make a big difference. Although I like my privacy, I think it'll be a good thing to have someone to come home to. Maybe we'll actually eat dinner at the table instead of in front of the TV.



I've also been trying to be nicer to myself, from a self-talk perspective. For instance, I was clearing out the closet in the guest room for my cousin, and packed away all the clothes that are WAY TOO BIG FOR ME NOW! I kept them with the thought of getting them altered. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. I also reminded myself that if I drop about 10-ish lbs, I'll have almost an entire new wardrobe waiting for me in that closet - all the things I've purchased when I've been SO CLOSE to fitting in them comfortably. I am telling myself that I will get there.


Every time I sit in a seat that I'm not stuck in by the arms, I tell myself that I can fit!


Every time I cross my legs with no effort, I congratulate myself.



Every time I look at an old picture and then a new picture, I think, "WOW!"

Here's an old picture:

Here's a picture that is about a year old. The jacket I'm wearing in it is more comfortable now than it was then, but it's a very good representation of what I look like now. I like now better than the old picture.